It still feels a bit odd...

...to say "I have a son". At times I can hardly believe that I'm a mother now, (though it doesn't take that much to snap myself back to reality, heh).

Motherhood has been a rollercoaster ride so far (and it's only been 8 weeks or so!). The first month was tough; things are getting better now, as I learn to understand the little one a bit more each day. Am still trying to come to terms with the fact that not all the expectations of how to care for baby would be met. Like using the pacifier, for example. After a few weeks, we decided it was time to buy one. Ah well-pick your battles, as they say...

A couple of things to pen down, before they become distant memories:

His neck control is really quite good; even in the early days he could lift his head up, much to our surprise. Recently we have had quite a few laughs watching him shift his head from left to right (while lying on his tummy)- which involves lifting his head first, and then shuffling face down to the other side. Hilarious.

His lower lip quivers pitifully sometimes when he's crying. We noticed it right from day 1 when he was born. Aiyo, so drama.

Screams the house down sometimes if we're late in giving him his milk. Goes all red and screams until a point where there is no sound- scary. But after that he realises it takes too much energy, so he quietens a bit thereafter. At least the screaming doesn't last too long.

Sometimes he's content to suck on the pacifier while waiting for his meal. Wonder how long we can continue 'conning' him...

He pecks or headbutts when he's hungry- just like a little bird. And the way he latches on to the bottle (or me :p) would give piranhas a run for their money!

He waves (more like punching) and kicks quite comically when he's not happy- i.e. when he's sleepy or hungry. He packs quite a punch too!

Sometimes he makes a 'fish mouth' (like he's trying to whistle) when he wants to poo. Or he goes really quiet.. as if he's up to no good. Haha.

He makes a lot of noise when he sleeps at night- grunts, etc. In the early days we used to get up to check on him all the time, worried that he might have vomitted or something. Now we're wiser- it's just how he is, so we don't bother so much.

And oh.. that smile. Just melts your heart. (Never mind that at this stage the smiles are probably mostly involuntary- but hey, I'll take what I can get. It's one of those things that keeps me going.) Also, recently he has been chuckling as well.. which sounds like a quick series of hiccups, except that they are coupled with a broad smile. Awww..

Sigh. :)